Wings that soar together (Doodling away on the train)

Rowsed and ruffled with arms so wide

They crept along the side

Seemingly broken, shattered and wasted

They saw the light

They brought and fought

With a feathers edge

Lost away in the sun

With gardens tread

And garlands dead

We lost the desire to live

Brought to this world for love and life

We sought nothing but hatred

This bend in the air was all it ook

For us to be apart

Now i see the world above me

Lost in the madness of the air

They know not,speak not and hear not what they think

But lie amongst the stones

Like pebbles washed away

Unwanted, dried and usless

We vowed to ourseleves to be companions

Till the earth would fall again

But your lies ring in my head

Stronger and clearer than ever before

I had promised myself that i would 

Be braver in fighting myself

Courageous in facing you

Stronger in bracing myself

But i lost

Lost in the shadows of the world

Healing...then feeling

By: Nafeesa Johar

Alienated

I am walking on the shores of the sea, waiting for the waves to touch my feet
The blazing sun and the clear blue waters are new to me
I am not of this world...not from this time

We come from the land of the soil
Where things are dipped in honey and presented by grains of rice
In this new world of which i know nothing
I stand alone time and time again

Though the beings here are not wrong
They act like they do everyday
But all this is new to my eyes
I am not comfortable amongst the big and the green

The eyes glare at me, the mouth snarls at me, the teeth bares at me, the fingers poke me
I hide away in my ship that got me here
Behind my cubicle, amongst the ferns
I feel safe here in my atmosphere

I come here for a short time, wanting to go back, wanting to run away
Is it the world or is the green?
I donot know
Though it fascinates me to be here
Yet i know that i dont belong
Somehow the snarls and the glares attract me more
I move to the edge of my seat
Peeping around to see shyly

The monster opens it's eye slowly
Turing as i turn
Gliding as i glide
Twisting as i twist
Gets hold of me
Opens it's huge jaws and comes to bite me
I smile slyly at him
He doesnot know who i am

Though i am new to this world
The blazing sun and the clear blue water unknown to me
I can smite him where he stands
Can rule what he cant
Can take what he desires
Can crush him as he cries
And finally when i have his hand
I will raise it to the sky
And with all the force that the honey has given me
Bring it down on my head
And finish what never began


By: Nafeesa Johar

PARTS OF ME

I loose myself somewhere

Before I let go for sure,

Lost in the light that welled in me,

Lost in the paper that wrote

Before the magic ever began

I ran towards the stage

I shook the curtains and let then down

So that it could never begin

I hide the part that keeps me sane

I hide the part that knows

I hide the part that tells the truth

I show the ones that follow me

The ones I know will be the first to run

My pen glides over the pages

As I rise above the usual fall

I feel the same power within me

I lie below the unusual above

These parts I see behind me

Were never to be shown

Yet I wonder whether it is normal

To be this alone

People think I think they are the ones who know

I think they are right but yet does it have be always that you know

I stood before you were born inside me

I shall stand in a crowd now that the wind has blown the rocks away


By: Nafeesa Johar

I am setting myself free...

I am setting my worries free
Letting the sea take them
Letting the waves sweep them where they may

The sound of the ocean
The calming sound
that soothes my heart, my mind, my soul

Worries do one no good
They bring grief and sorrow

My heart and soul want to sing and dance
My mind is doing just that

So I am setting my worries free
Dropping them inside this box
and letting the world take care of them

What a relief to know that I do not have to worry


I found a quiet place by the babbling stream
I let the tears fall down my face
I released all the tension that was pent up inside me
I let go of all the anger I was holding onto
I sat there for awhile
Alone
Surrounded by nature
Surrounded by the sounds of peace
I held myself tenderly
I knew I needed to get all of this out
I knew I needed to be alone in those moments
It was a blessing to find such a perfect place,
to free myself of this tornado that has been ripping me apart
I sat there
and sat there
Until I felt that I didn't need to be there any longer
I felt lighter, free, happy
I finally feel like myself again

This mirror has seen all of my.
My smiling face filled with happiness.
My eyes sad with sorrow.
The hurt in my heart.
The glow of a beautiful day.
Tired sleep eyes
Eyes beaming with joy.

This mirror has reflected back pieces of me,
and forced me to look.
I cannot hide from this mirror.
Always it is there like a trusty friend,
telling me to open my eyes and see the beauty that is before me.

This mirror holds my secrets,
whispers sweet nothings,
catches my fears,
and protects my heart.

This mirror has made me begin to see myself,
embrace myself,
and love myself. 


By: Nafeesa Johar


April 17, 2009

I HAD ANOTHER SOUL...so leave it be!

There was a light i used to seek
even before i was born
then one day i took a peek
inside my lonely heart
and found it there waiting to shine
i was overjoyed..for once happy
oh how much we knew each other...how much we cared
It was like i had another soul
it was as if i had found myself all over again
but a day came by when the light began to fade
i tried to hold it inside me forever
i tried to make it a part of me
i didnot want it to go
my light
myself
but it was destined...so it happened
no matter how hard i clung to it
pulled it
trapped it
cried for it
died for it
i was lonely once more
AHOY THERE!
a voice called behind me
and lo! i had found the perfect light
it was there all along
I had never searched for it
memories began to fade...as new ones took hold
I was alive again
Powerful than ever before
But i asked myself one day
Is this the one??
I STILL DON'T KNOW....


By: Nafeesa Dawson

April 11, 2009 at 4:17pm